I used to dread weekends. I know that sounds really weird

Let me explain.
I had a great life. A good job, hard working husband and a beautiful home.
Though I had all those great things in my life, my life was completely empty.
There were social events with people who judged and criticized, lots of errands and tv shows that had to be watched.
My life was void of any real connection with people. People were around me, but there was no real authenticity.
A lot of what was going on had to do directly with me, not other people. I was afraid to really open up to people so I kept finding the same people.
People who were self centered but came off as friendly and social.
They had a hard time being real.
I had no clue how to find authentic relationships.
Where I could be myself and be accepted.
Where I could give to others as as act of joy.
Life is about relationships with others. The good, the bad, and wonderful surprises when you just let go of all expectations.
Have you been at this place? I have a feeling you have.
Start asking for what you really want.
Make the changes.
Find your people.